[Wednesday, July 14, 2010]

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know, then you can't care
And you show up, but you're not there
But I'm waiting, and you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

(MAROON 5 - Nothing Lasts Forever)


* Posted by 3k4 @ 11:51 PM *

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[Monday, July 12, 2010]

Another revisit after more than 1 year abandoned. My blog still is here, a place where I can spill out everything and used to be a “friendly ear” that I needed. Always amazed with what I had written before, and makes me want to write again.

Going through my inbox, I found 2 heartbreaking emails that are still hurt to read until now, nearly 2 months later. Guess I would need to put it here, as a memento. Some people say that things happened in cycles. Perhaps mine is a five-year one.

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(Thursday, May 20, 2010, 21:35:28) Wrote:

How dare you...

After all these times, this is all you got to say? So disrespectful and not even try to end it nicely. Or maybe because for you it has never been started?

Fine. Goodbye to you. I wish you could get whatever that you are looking for through all the choices you made, which (again) decided by your own.

Amor animi arbitrio sumitur, non ponitur. Sic erat in fatis. I bet my fate twice, and twice i've lost. Perhaps simply those things are just not for me.

I am sorry too for everything, and thank you for everything. I wish you be happy.

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(Thursday, May 20, 2010, 21:20:01) Wrote:

Hello dear,

How are you? How’s your life? I hope everything fine and well there...

I don’t know what to write actually. I feel so anxious and guilty. So tired. Seems like this is the consequences I have because of my own choice.

Dear, whatever happens with me, I would like you to know that I love you beyond words. I wish you to continue your journey to find happiness.

I am so sorry.


* Posted by 3k4 @ 9:43 PM *

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