Since the declaration on my last posting, I could praise myself for quite successfully filling my days with some useful activities. Condition in real hasn’t changed at all, but the psychology is improving for sure. Though it feels better, but I cannot yet claim that I have passed the sloping downward completely. The confident is just not there yet. The situation is still pretty much dynamic. Let just hope that I could maintain this good mood and positive attitude steadily.

So what things that I’ve done these days to fill in the time? Here are the lists:

Improving my communication at home. I have to admit that during my “office time”, I was hardly spoken in lengthy conversation with my folks at home. My business-like attitude was coming along with me. Now I have time and availability, it feels nice to be a good listener and nice talking companion for them. Never cross in my mind before about how they probably lonely and miss their kids to chat around. Now I’ve learned; better too late than never though.

Attending many cultural events. 3 were already in my list for these past weeks: Musikalisasi Puisi Ari-Reda at the Newseum, Violin concert at the GKJ, and the Trio Storioni concert at the Erasmus Huis. Others will come on the way, just haven’t decided any yet. I am considering to write some personal review on every event I attend. But still the wishful thinking though. Let just see it later if the mood ever comes.

Doing sport on a regular basis. I used to do sport, but more on the random basis wherever I feel like want to and can manage my time to do it. Considering now I have such a free leisure time, I guess doing some exercise is a necessity to keep my body physically working. And considering now I have the time, there is no excuse for not doing so. Hopefully this could continuously last.

Reading books. I have many collection of books, which was bought quite some times ago and some even not yet being touched. Again, considering now I have all the times in the world, guess I could start to read it on. I just finished a book by Gede Prama. It is very enlightening, teaching me to always be grateful and live with “open eyes” in order to see the beauty in every aspect, even on the worse part of it. Looking back, I was quite bitter for the conditions happened and long waiting that I have to endure. But now I convinced that perhaps this is the way that I have to go through in finding patience as my virtue. While at the same time I should keep on trying, on the other hand I should also put my arrogance down for over too confident in everything. Wishing is okay, but nothing is certain because it is beyond human power, and there is a way (already) decided for every person. Doing, believe, and hoping for the best.

Using the internet facility on its best (beside the basic use such as emails and facebook of course). It’s mean using the internet for as many thing as possible. Things such as searching opportunities to pursue my way, keep my mind spinning, and learning about everything. I read so many writings from my fellow college students in their blog. I have to admit that beside admiration there is also a little bit envy. Seems like they have reached certain height (or depth?) of thinking in their mind. Not to mention their academic achievement that so in line with their current career. I am so envious. Yes indeed, there is a way for every person. I wish my way would be on its way soon, and in the mean time I would keep on working to find it. Let just say the envy is working in a positive way: it motivates to keep on moving toward the road (that seems) less travelled (for me).

Small things do need big effort. Keeping my closet neat and my room tidy seems like not a big task, but it takes one whole day for me to do it. Sorting out letters for credit cards and phone bills, bank statement, and rearranging my closet definitely took one full day to accomplish. Now I can proudly present my neat table from unnecessary papers, and well-arranged closet. Good thing is, I end up with some spare room left in my closet, means I can still fill in more stuffs. Let’s go shopping, anyone?

The list is still counting, some more will come along the way.