[Monday, May 26, 2008]
I was in a state of bad mood today. However now everything seems to be better. I was walking back home, kept my eyes open, looked at my surrounding, and pay quite an attention to all the street night life that I found during my walk. As usual, it helps me to feel better. Seeing the other people who (seems) have more difficult life and less fortunate, helps me to be grateful for what I have now.
But I cannot lie to myself though. I feel bad at the same time, because it seems that the other people disadvantageous are becoming my advantageous; it helps me to feel better by giving me a reflection of how blessed I am with all the things I already get, compare to them. What a narrow mind. Who am I anyway that can judge whether my condition is actually better or not, and vice versa?
Blessing is a blessing no matter how much/little and being grateful is a must for every blessing we receive regardless of the amount because. Moreover, it is not some quantitative matter that countable and comparable. Each and everyone get different blessing. How much is pretty much depends on how we actually appreciate it.
We don’t always get what we want, so better to learn to want what we get. I am heading to that direction now. Being realistic is definitely not an easy or pleasant way, in fact it usually hard and hurtful. But it definitely a better option to live rather than keep wanting of something that we cannot get.
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[Monday, May 12, 2008]
Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.
The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.
What Tarot Card are You?
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[Sunday, May 11, 2008]
(Paulo Coelho – The Devil and Miss Prym)
Just when I thought I have settled, start to enjoy, and begin to love it, then life decided that I have to change; facing something totally new and learning all over again from zero.
I have been complaining, seems to dislike the whole things, but just when things about to change, I found out how I am going to miss all of those. It is true that one will feel the true meaning of something when about to lose it.
It always difficult to leave something that has become so familiar behind. Leaving a comfort zone without feeling fear is never easy. All these times I always yearn for changes, so it is time to pull myself together and take the challenge as it is.
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[Tuesday, May 06, 2008]
While some other usually have to struggle very hard and not necessarily achieved what they want. They always have to be by their own, fight alone, stay alone, and deal with everything by themselves. Even though they have been very nice behaved and tried so hard to reach out, but helping hand is (seems) neither available nor accessible to get.
Life is just not fair. But who said it is? And what is the definition of fairness anyway? It is pretty much depends on which angle we took a standpoint.
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[Thursday, May 01, 2008]
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