[Saturday, January 22, 2005]
A mother's love is our first love,
and we carry it forever
Warm and familiar,
worn smooth with time and care
What a gift to have your love in my world
What a gift to have you as my mother...
Happy birthday Mom, i wish you a good health and long life. Thank you for anything that you have done for me. No greater love i've ever knew and no greater gratitude i could ever gives you. Miss you so much now....
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3k4 @ 4:05 AM *
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[Friday, January 21, 2005]
Today, the Indonesia Student Association of Wageningen was helding a fund rising activity for tsunami disaster in Aceh called the Indonesia Donation day. So many people were invited. People so called 'potential donator' such as the mayor of Wageningen, the rector magnificus of Wageningen universiteit, the Indonesian ambassador for the Netherlands, and so many others. So many performances were prepared. Performances that shows our diversity in culture, our hidden talents in singing and poetry reading, and also the traditional dancing. And i get the opportunity do do the dancing again, the same like the one i performed on the Global Village day e few months ago. I have to admit that i kind a fall in love with dancing, especially Indonesian traditional dancing with dynamic rhyme. Far away from my own country makes me proud of the richness culture and tradition we have, and i really longing to master one of it.
The weather was not really good, it's raining all day long and the conditions of the performers, in terms of their health, were all poor. Something terribly wrong was happened here for the last few days. Many people get sick, it started with one people then it went to another and others, untill half of the performers were sick today. Fortunately the spirit to help the tsunami victims was able to overcome those sickness. Each and everyone insisted to perform and gave the best contribution we could give. Only 2 people totally absent due to their illness, they did not able to get up from bed and totally sick. And fortunately all the intended invitees were able to come and gave their donation. So from today's activity we could raise the fund up to 2000 euro. And this amount would still likely to increase, because we just received some update that one of the department of our university which did not come to the event would also like to donate their money up to 1000 euro *alhamdulillah*. It might relatively not much, but every little amount would do good to help the tsunami victims in Aceh.
We hope that this activity could act as a starting point, a beginning, and a launching of similar activities that may attract as many funds as possible. My biggest gratitude to all of my friends who sacrifices their time and energy to organize this event. May God bless you and all of us here and anyone in our beloved country.
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3k4 @ 3:35 AM *
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[Wednesday, January 19, 2005]
My mind seems focused to one thing recently. One thing that I don't even think is worthy to distract my attention that much. Yet I cannot help it, as I cannot get rid off it from my mind. I know there are still many other things that more important to think about. I know there are still many other problems that heavier than what I deal with currently. And I know there are still many other people that very much less lucky than me. I should be able to stop complaining. I should be grateful for what I have been through. And I should have been thinking of things that I have instead of what I don't have. I know I should...but it is so easier to say than done.
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3k4 @ 7:00 AM *
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[Tuesday, January 18, 2005]
Lost and found. I remembered the board around the corner in my campus, Gedung A. It was a board that filled with messages about anything lost and/or anything found. I don't know whether it's quite effective or not, in terms of really help them who lost and found things. What I know, it was never empty. Someone always put something in the board. There was always someone who lost and found things I guessed.
Found and lost. Now I come up with this new order of words. Does it really matter how we arrange it? According to the lost and found board, there is no difference at all. Someone lost things and some others found it, vice versa. Not clear which one happened first and which others followed. But one friend of mine came up with questions: what's that? Why found and lost? It was usually lost and found, he said. And according to me, as there are always meaning behind everything, then there is different meaning for each different order.
Lost and found: something that once was lost and then we found it...
Found and lost: something that we found and then we lost it...
Yet another question arise, can we lose something we found despite that the things was not even belong to us and had never been all along?
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3k4 @ 1:13 AM *
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[Monday, January 17, 2005]
The journey has begun
I felt my heart tumbling and my adrenaline racing
I felt nervous yet so excited
I felt uncertain but so challenged
I can do this !!!
*Strange feeling i got after the first meeting with my supervisor-to-be on friday*
* Posted by
3k4 @ 5:27 AM *
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[Wednesday, January 05, 2005]
2004 was such a turbulence year. Dreams fulfilled dreams astray. Heart broken, heart fell. Hopes came up, hopes vanished. Found new friends, lost some. Closer to some people than ever, but distant to some others. Mentally growing and physically changed.
A year ago, I started my new life in this country. I left everything behind: my jobs, career, families, friends, and people I loved. Today I feel that what I left behind is actually never gone. It is always here with me, in every aspect of my life as can feel their love, care, and support somehow. Some things are treasured in life and never can be replaced. Some times you don't realize what you have 'till it's gone. One year seems like yesterday, yet it seems so far away. I still can remember clearly what had happened and what I had been through for the last one year. So many things that I can hardly believe it occurred in the period of one year. Makes me wonder, where would I be and what would I been through in the next coming year?
Sidelines:
My deep condolences to my beloved country that once again get some ordeal from God. Please let their soul rest in peace and gives strength to them who left. May all of us learn from the experience and realize how fragile we are as human to act such arrogance and dare to play God in our lives.
* Posted by
3k4 @ 5:52 PM *
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