[Friday, December 24, 2004]

Pheeew....finally the exam is over. It was my last exam i hope, if everything smooth i will not have any more exam to do, "only" thesis left. Hehehe even just to said the word now bring butterfly to my stomach. Maybe it's about time to be stress out about thesis, just like all my friends had a few months ago. Since i was a late comer then i am also a late starter for the thesis.

But in a while, i have a lot of plan to do to fill in my short holiday period. I'll go to Eindhoven today to have christmast dinner at FranKy's. Not to mention to celebrate chrismast anyway since neither of us celebrate it, but it's more like to gather together and have some fun. Because they really don't have a heart to imagine that will spend the christmast time alone, as if it would matter to me. Then tomorrow the dinner will continue with PPI'ers at Mbak Nike's place. The next day dinner would be at my place with some friends who will be sleepover my place for the winter tour. On monday the winter tour to Paris will begin, and on Wednesday after Paris i'll continue to Berlin and spend my new year eve there. I am so excited about all this plan. Life seems so great and fun when you're having a holiday ;)

And speaking about Berlin, i made contact with my long lost friend since high school to meet there. It was so funny, because either of us haven't met since we both graduated years ago. Then suddenly i found him in friendster and look at his location, which is in Germany. He is actually studying at Hannover, the city about 3 hours from Berlin. But another nice coincidence happen because he is going to spend new year eve in Berlin as well. Nice surprise indeed. It will be so refreshing to meet someone from your past, someone who know well how crazy you were, and someone who definitely remind you of those glorious old times when life had been so simple.


* Posted by 3k4 @ 4:19 PM *

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[Sunday, December 19, 2004]

I believe there is a rainbow at the end of every storm. But what if life is such a never-ending storm? Is it worth to keep waiting for the rainbow? Or is it better to just keep living and trying to survive on daily basis? Carpe diem...seize the day....whatever the future lies ahead.


* Posted by 3k4 @ 5:42 PM *

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[Friday, December 17, 2004]

I just return from my short getaway. Rome indeed was a perfect place to go. Many beautiful places and things to see, really able to distract me for a while. The beautiful Fontana de Trevi, Piazza Venezia, Pantheon, and the magnicifent citta del Vatican with its basilica San Pietro could refresh my soul for a while. Moreover, i read Da Vinci code while i was there. So i was kind a get strange feeling, reading some book that telling me about church conspiracy in the centre of the church itself. Really eery sensation if i might called.

Now get back to reality, real life, prepare myself for the exam next week. My soul are refreshed but my body are tired now. Geez....i hope i could pass this last exam nicely *finger crossed*



* Posted by 3k4 @ 4:14 AM *

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[Friday, December 10, 2004]

My life seems so confusing recently. I feel happy but sad at the same time. I am excited yet guilt persist. I need to move on but i cannot stop to look back...


* Posted by 3k4 @ 5:11 AM *

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[Monday, December 06, 2004]

I am trying to live my life with no regret, but unfortunately regret is always remains in the end. If only I can turn back the time....


* Posted by 3k4 @ 5:50 PM *

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There is time in our life when we feel so mentally exhausted. Seems like very little thing we do causing fatigue though we're not physically tired. We eat, we sleep, we talk, and we work, just like a robot. Everything was done because of needs. No motivation at all, since we do not know what do to, where to go, which way to choose, and completely lost.

People say if such things happen, all we have to do basically is just to look into ourselves. Bring back our mind to figure out what we truly longing for and what we've ever dreamt on. A little conscious might help to bring back our lives to the right path. However, looking for something inside probably is the hardest thing to do. It is so much easier to stand as an outsider, looking ourselves from somebody else's perspective, just like looking at the reflection in the mirror. When we lost, we expect to ask somebody and there always somebody who could tell us about which way to go. But is it the right thing to do? Can anybody tell us our own conscious correctly? Can anybody else help to find what exactly we want and put us into the right direction? Right answers never seem come up easily...and those things seem easier to say than done.


* Posted by 3k4 @ 4:25 AM *

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