[Thursday, May 27, 2004]

Today was started just like any other ordinary days, wake up early in the morning ready to go and have a class. Yet, apparently it's not just any other ordinary days, as i will tell you what had happened.

But before that, let me explain what happened yesterday first. Me and Joice were decided to take a day break after our horrible exam. Seems like we're just going to stay at home and doing some housewives things like cleanings, laundry, cookings, etc. Then suddenly everything's changed, Joice's friend was called and ask us to travel with him to Den Haag. So finally we did 'just do it' things again, and went to Den Haag unplanned. Our first intention was to go to Scheveningen and enjoyed the beach. Then again some change happened, we decided to visit Madurodam first (the miniature of Holland) then go to Scheveningen. It was fun! One more example how something unplanned may bright up your day *grin*. Madurodam was beautiful and Scheveningen was great. We really had a great time, walking around, enjoying the sun, watching sand sculpture, eating pancake, and fooling around. Really...really fun time that supposed to be enough recharging my battery!

Today i was having morning class. As Joice's tyre got flat on the way to the campus, we're walking to Pak Muli's house after the class to met Hasto (Joice's friend who went with us to Den Haag), since he promised to cook us dinner at Joice's place. But while they're preparing everything, i had some meeting with my Bahasa Indonesia lesson student. He asked me to have some coffee at The Coffeworld and so it be. What i thought would be just a small chit-chat turned out to be long talking, he likes to talk a lot and we indeed had a great conversation though. And finally i left to have dinner with Joice and Hasto afterwards. Nice dinner indeed! Hasto is definitely a great cook, he made us some vegetables and seafood stuffs, very spicy, very delicious! *yummy*. Great food......great people.....such a perfect things to have dinner with *grin*.

* Posted by 3k4 @ 4:37 AM *

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[Tuesday, May 25, 2004]

Finally.........my exam was passed! Yes, it just passed today and made me feel so relieve about it. Well...not to mention about 'the exam', i think it's totally disaster, the most difficult exam i've ever had and i don't have a guts to expect a lot for the result. What's matter now...it's passed! *grin*

I am still sick by the way. Being sick for the last 4 days was not good at all. I hate being sick, coz i hate being trapped in my own room while the sunshine clearly outside *sigh*. And because of that i haven't be able to do some weekly shopping for my personal needs, my fridge is empty now and i just ate some unhealthy foods for the last 3 days. Yup...being sick plus unhealthy food, no wonder i ain't recover yet. And about my sickness, my friends begun to suspect that this is not just an ordinary flu, this may be some kind of allergic to 'pollen' (something from the flowers). Because flu usually accompany with fever but i never got any fever at all! Just cough, sneeze, problem with my nose and throat, watery eyes, and a little bit headache. So is it an allergic? I never had any allergic before, but as i read from some sources everyone have potential allergeness in their body, it's only a matter of antibody to keep it away. So it is possible that i got an allergic because i was in the weak body condition, right? Hhhhh i don't know....just want this pass and getting well as soon as possible.

Today after the exam, me and Joice directly had to attend the class for European Workshop that 'supposedly' held in Prague. Strange things happen, all my dissapointment and unsatisfaction about we cannot go to Prague seems decrease significantly. Maybe we start to accept the whole thing, and believe that God did everything with some intention. Indeed we're making fun of them whose going to Prague after we listened to the assignment description. Yes, it seems like a hardworking to do there, hired as a 'slave' (not to call it free labour) for some project. So while they're kicking their asses in Prague, we who are left here would have some good time to spend *i really hope so, hehehe*.

After the class, me and Joice decided to see TROY the movie in EDE Bioscoop. Acually we were tired and sleepy, but somehow we felt urgency to release stress after that sucks exam. And watching movie could be one of the way we thought about. Beside i had been never go to watch any movie in the biscoop for this past 5 months *my God, it's a record*. And it's proven to be a right choice! We really enjoy the movie, it was so cool, the story, the scene, the effects, and of course the actors *wink...wink*. No...not Brat Pitt or Orlando Bloom by the way. They're doing okay, but just that, no more no less. What we love is the role of Prince Hector of Troy by Eric Bana. He could get into his roles sooo good, just like Viggo Mortensen did as Aragorn in LOTR *ehm*. We have to admit that we really fell in their role, wish we could meet a man with such quality in real life *wink...wink*.

So finally after left our room at 8.30 in the morning to have the exam, we got back at 12.00 at midnight after watched the movie. It's been a long...long day, some disaster *the exam*, some fun *the movie*. And now....here i'm scribbling....writing, still can't get enough of energy releases afterall *grin*. But i have to sleep now...see ya tomorrow, or should i said later in the afternoon ;)

* Posted by 3k4 @ 6:08 AM *

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[Thursday, May 20, 2004]

Wow...this blog have been abandoned for quite a long time. Many things has happened since the last time i wrote. Yes...my self still been in misery sometimes, but now i can enjoy mylife so much better compare to 2 weeks ago. Thanks to all my friends around the world, who seems to give support as much as they can *thanks to the internet technology for it*. I got a cold now, bad flu i guessed. Sore throat, headachey, fever (a little bit), and sleepy...totally sleepy. Meanwhile i supposed to study since Monday will be my exam day *sigh*. Wish me luck for this...

But as a pay off of my absence, i'd like to write down some short description about what had happened to my life during my absence from the 'blog world' in order of reversed time chronologies ;) You know....just to find something that seems okay to postpouning your study *hehehe*

Arnhem trip and singing practice (19 May)

After the presentation, me and Joice felt a little urgency to release stress and pampering ourselves. So we decided *suddenly* to go to Arnhemn, just to do some sightseeing and shopping if necessary *grin*. And yes of course we did some shopping, i bought some personal stuff at Douglas and t-shirt from H&M, and so was Joice. We're having fun....so i do feel that sometimes is necessary to do some crazy things beyond your plan or agenda. 'Just do it' thing ;)

And later in the afternoon, i was having a singing practice with another Indonesia students at Ibu Drupadi place (Haarweg). We planned to entertain some Indonesian elders here in Wageningen by singing an old Indonesian songs, so we need practice to perform our best. It was fun though, the singing practice can release some stress in someway, the athmosphere quite fun, and the foods *again* was great! Food always great when it comes to gathering events *grin*

Presentation of MUE (17-19 May)

This period i took one courses which designed specially for 4 weeks duration. The reason was because of the European workshop that would last for the last 6 weeks of this period and *supposely* held in Prage, Chezch Republic. But...since the Madrid bombing, the visa's things became more rigid, and as a result all Indonesian students together with Chinese, Jordan, Iran, and some of African Countries cannot join the workshop at all! What a ridiculous situation, and what a big liar they are! Because they finally arrange some alternative program here in Wageningen! My of my....it's so unfair and unequal both substantially and financially. I feel so sorry for my friends who self financed for this course, because they totally loss in this matters. For me, it's no too big deal since i got a schoolarship on my own. Yet....it still dissapointing anyway.

Well....back to my presentation things, it was a marathon presentation which started on Thurday (13/5) before, followed by Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday as a final. Joice got the Tuesday session with Fransisco, and i got the Wednesday session together with Wang, Fransisco *again*, Linda, and Nanu.

It was a great presentation i supposed. But i felt quite dissapointed a little. Okke forbid me to any presentation before, and when it comes to the final, i just go the introduction and closing part! Just like hosting the whole presentation. I knew, i should be grateful to got the easiest part of final presentation myself, but i dont know, i didn't feel too satisfy about it. I just hope Okke wouldn't put any marks based on the content we're presented, because it's centainly not my fault to get the easiest part. He's the one who decide it. Oh ya by the way, we're doing the final presentation in front of the class together with caretakers and managers of the building that we researched for the last 3 weeks. And i think they're quite impress with the result.

Pengajian PPI (16 May)

After partying an being lazy bones for half of the day, we had to be prepared for Pengajian PPI which held regulerly every month and this month would take place at Ibu Retno's house. Oh well...life do needs a balance anyway, party and pengajian seems contradicting in one way, but both quite important for my mentally development *hehehe*. Me and Dedek left at 17.45 together with Ika and Fitri. It was nice you know, gathered with friends that seems like my family here, met all those cute children, delicious foods, and most of all he pengajian itself. I felt quite peacefull when pengajian started. It's been a long time since the last time i heard those holy Qur'an or even read it by my self. So...with all the stuffs and fun, the pengajian lasted up to 11 o'clock in the evening. And after reached home, i still have to manage myself finishing the slides for presentation in the following days. Then it becames another stay up late and went to bed nearly in the morning *sigh*, really unhealthy way to live.

Goball Village Day 2004 (15 May)

Indonesia known as the best country when it comes to the participation of GVD all these years in Wageningen. In fact we were winning the best costume for last year GVD. So it's quite a mental burden for us here, since we felt that it would be necessary to win some of the award again. Soo....we prepared very-very seriously. Many performances arranged, such as dancing, singing, musical instruments, etc..etc. And yes i got the dancing part! Can you imagine that...the last time i did dancing as performance was in my elementary school, and here i had to do it again after such a long time, dancing traditional from Riau, far way from my home country!

Oh well....after felt a little bit nervous and full of doubtness, finally i can encouraged myself to do it. Afterall, i'd do the dancing in front of foreign people who might never knew the original one, so if the worse case i did mistakes or somehings, nobody will notice. Beside...being away from home and my own country made me think, it's okay to do something extraordinary since i am a foreigner and won't stay here forever *hehehe what a nasty thought dont you think*.

And at last....i was not some decision that i'd regret about. I felt soooo satisfy about our performance. After many pratices in groups or alone in my room *yikes, ain't fun at all*, finally we can perform our best. Nobody made mistakes, and i can say we was quite success to ge the attention of audiences since they put us as the first performance. And not to mentioned about the costume! I felt soooo pretty that day. Me and Joice wore a beautiful pink 'baju kurung' *thanks to Fitri for the maginificent dress* with some beautiful pink flowers at our hair *thanks to Amel for the creativity*, and fully make-up face that makes us quite different from daily appearances *thanks to Ika for the magic touch*. We both success in attracting many attention, a lot of people want to take pictures with us! Wow i felt like a celebrity in that day *grin*

And later in the night, we went to the party at UNITAS to attend the winner announcement. And as everybody predicted....Indonesia won once again, this time even better because we not only won for one specific criteria, but we won for the whole criteria that they put us as THE BEST GVD of 2004!!! Wow...wow...wow...enjoyed the winning euphoria, we were staying at the party until 3.30 o'clock in the morning. It was a great night, great party, and great time for sure. Ah...not to forget mentioned one thing, Dedek was coming on the day, so she can felt the enjoyment as well. And it was resulted in being lazy bones on Sunday, because we woke up at 12.30 at daylight! *sheepishly smile*

* Posted by 3k4 @ 5:42 PM *

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[Sunday, May 09, 2004]

I thought I have been stronger
I was wrong...
I thought I would no longer weep
I was wrong...
I thought everything would be easier
I was wrong...
I thought I would survive by my self
I was wrong...
I thought I could move on
I was wrong...
I thought I knew my heart very well
But now I don't know anymore...

* Posted by 3k4 @ 2:23 AM *

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[Friday, May 07, 2004]

It's been quite a while since the last time of....you know....
Yes....i finally manage the whole "thing" up to now *i hope*. I am survive so far and getting better each day *i think, not too sure tough*.

One thing for sure, i can conlude that human is a social creature that cannot live alone. Yet, human have nature instinct to protect themselves from any harm around, and became solitaire if necessary. For that i am such a lucky person to be surrounding by nice friends amongst them who-can-be-called "beasts" and ruined my life here.

Therefore i have some words to my bestfriend and buddy as a gratitude for they have gave me companion and keep my feet stay on the ground just when i felt the sky above me was torn apart.

My Sanctuary

I have found my sanctuary...
In the middle of nowhere, away from my home and family
I have found my sanctuary...
The peaceful place to keep my soul from a ruthless world
I have found my sanctuary...
Encircled by friendship and sincerity
I have found my sanctuary...
Here...at last

(Monday, 3 May 2004, 19:25)

* Posted by 3k4 @ 2:04 AM *

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[Monday, May 03, 2004]

9 Lesson in life

1. Learn to care
2. Learn to smile
3. Learn to cry
4. Learn to give
5. Learn to forgive
6. Learn to share
7. Learn to trust
8. Learn to love, and
9. Learn to loose someone...

My deepest gratitude to my dearest brother for the wisdom words, knowing i have such a support have convinced me to move on and believe that i'll trough these all safely and soundly. Miss you all...

* Posted by 3k4 @ 12:53 AM *

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