[Wednesday, March 31, 2004]

Last weekend the time was changed to summer. So it has to moved forward 1 hour, which means the morning will be start earlier, but the daylight will be longer. Imagine, Subuh falls on 4 o'clock in the morning, but Maghrib falls on 8 o'clock in the evening. It's amazing, i'm still not getting used to this *grin*

I haven't write anything since i changed my template, oh well...maybe since there's nothing particular happened with me *excuse* or maybe just because i was busy doing this and that *another excuse^^*

Ahh about las week, actually it was not so good. I had mention that i fell when i was trying to open the window in my room. Well actually it's not the only "fall" accident i had experienced for the whole week. Indeed i was falling three times last week *three times!....imagine that, how clumsy i was*. Yup the first one was the window accident, the second one was when i fell from my bike when Aretha suddenly stopped in fron of me *btw, i was using Edna's bike at that time, so maybe i was not getting used to it*. And the third one *hopefully the last* was when i fell from my bike *again...this time Jo's bike* on the way home form spring party at 4 o'clock in the morning. Gee...what's a matter with me, was it just some kind a bad luck, or was it sign of something else? Hope nothing goes wrong anyway.

Yup....i was going to the party last weekend. It's my first time actually. I've been to a party when i was in Indonesia, but here....never so far, untill the last saturday finally i decided to go with Debbie. It was great, the party started at 12 in the midnight, hard music, and a lot of people. I was kind amazed to see how the people that i usually met on daily lives were so different that night. Maybe that's what so called the magic of make up and fashion *hehehe*. They were look so pretty *some even looks menor*, and wore sexy clothes too, open here and there to show their best assets *ehm..ehm..suit...suiiittt*.

And latter on the sunday, i had to wake up at 10 since Jo asked her bike again to go to the church and i had to prepare some materials since there would be a group meeting in the afternoon. My...o..my, it was hard for me to open my eyes the whole day. I was sooooo sleeepy *indeed i'm still kind a sleepy until today*. Maybe that's the lesson i got from the party: don't go to any party on Saturday, unless you dont have any other activity in the Sunday. Or maybe i just have to go to any party on Friday evening *hehehe*

* Posted by 3k4 @ 12:30 AM *

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[Thursday, March 25, 2004]

I am suppose to work on my assignment and read some materials to be discussed tomorrow. Yet, i was working on my blog and change my template to update my lay out and becomes totally new.

I choosed this design among all others, not only because i like the way it looks but also it is the easiest to be implemented to my blog *sheepishly smile*. I was working on this template changes by my self *grin*, just any matter of trial and error at the beginning, and finally i started to figure out some about html text.

What i love from this design is the color and the pictures. Soft pink that very feminine and pretty, plus beautiful picture of the pen and poems *truly symbolic and deeply in meaning*. It's really reflect what i searched when i was making this blog. To write everything about my journey here, for my self....my family...my friends...and someone who's no longer pay any attention to me.

* Posted by 3k4 @ 6:14 AM *

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[Wednesday, March 24, 2004]

Yesterday i fell when i was trying to open the upper window in my room. And a moment after i fell, i just layed down on the floor for about 1 minute or so *ouch...it was hurt*. Now i can hardly use or move my right thumb, then i got bruise on my right knee, and the whole my right body feel pain as if you got hit by something. In this case the floor got a hit by my body, and since it less strong than the floor than it is the one who feel the pain ^^

The weather is getting better since yesterday, no more rain or strong winds, but yup...the temperature is dropping again. An today it will range between 1-8 C. Nice....so here we are again, in the middle of winter *again*, while spring suppose to come already.

I have 2 assignment that suppose to finish this week since the deadline for groupwork would be this friday. But i haven't done anything to do mine *sigh*. Indeed when it comes to work on the assignment, i felt not in a mood. It was soooooo difficult that makes me sometimes frustrated. But anyway i have to try and keep trying....again and again....and....again and again......

* Posted by 3k4 @ 2:05 PM *

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[Monday, March 22, 2004]

Gee....weather in Netherlands is really hard to predicted. I just checked the weather forecast for 6 days ahead, and it said the temperature will be decrease again, range from -2 to 9 celcius degree. Hmm...where is spring??? Why it's not coming yet??? I really miss the sunlight...i miss to wear my light clothes, i miss to the warmess, and i miss to see the green leaves with colourful flowers ^^

And today, it's raining from the moment i wake up until now, complete with cold wind blows. Meanwhile i have workgroup meeting at 1 o'clock and class at 3 o'clock up in the hill *sigh*. Hopefully the weather will be better by then *at least it would not rain again*

* Posted by 3k4 @ 3:07 PM *

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Another weekend just passed by, and it's already the 4th week of 3rd period, wow...time seems running so fast. My weekend just ordinary, spent sometimes with the girls, did my laundry, and watched some movie from WESP.

Weather in here is harshed recently. After one beautiful day with sunshine, followed the rainy days complete with strong winds. Yes...the winds, it's the major problem i faced. It was so strong that made me nearly fell or change the direction if i was on my bike. Gee...really makes people to be lazy and unwilling to go outside.

Two days ago i found the tire of my bike was flat, and today i was trying to fix my bike with QQ. But unfortunately it was not flat, indeed it was holed, a lot of holes that cannot be repaired. Thus i have to buy another tire as soon as possible *sigh*

Meanwhile i have to find another bike to use.

* Posted by 3k4 @ 1:01 AM *

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[Thursday, March 18, 2004]

It's really beauuuutiful day, sunny, bright and warm. So looks finally spring is really arrived. Unfortunately nothing happen in particular about me, only any other ordinary day....having classes, go to campus, doing assignment, stay at my room...etc....etc....

But one thing for sure, my mood is improved *grin*. I'm no longer feel blue, mad, sad, and any other negative feelings. I feel relax, quite and calm. Is it because of the beautiful weather? Or is it because i finally reach the peak for my emotion explosion last night? No matter what....what matter is i feel better today ;)

* Posted by 3k4 @ 1:15 AM *

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[Wednesday, March 17, 2004]

Human cannot free from the society in life. That's why we called social beings instead of individual. But social relationship doesn't always run smoothly, and sometimes i really want to get away, stay far, release myself from all the norms and social boundaries, then live my life alone, individually, and my own *if only i'm capable to...*

* Posted by 3k4 @ 5:14 AM *

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[Monday, March 15, 2004]

Oh yes, last friday finally i decided to register to de bongerd and made sportcard membership. Maybe....*just maybe* i'll be more motivated to do some sport after having the membership card which cost some money. I plan to join fitness class, yoga class, some self defense class *still considering*, and of course swimming. I wish by doing all of those things, i would be able to control my self, my concentration *which is easily distracted recently*, and my emotion *which is ready to explode recently*.

I found this period really hard, i dont know....maybe because the last period was my first period, and i was having basic courses as my first time here. So in this period where i found the more advance courses, is really difficult for me. Not to mentioned about taking the policy courses....gee, i never likes politics in my life, but here i have to take the course as requirement for my thesis path. Or maybe i made a mistake by taking ENP as my thesis path??? Did i decide it too soon, while this is my second period and still a long way to go to thesis making process? I should start to prepare another option as my thesis path.....*just in case....*

* Posted by 3k4 @ 7:25 PM *

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[Saturday, March 13, 2004]

Most of the time, i always worried to others people thought about my behavior, whether it is aproriate or not, whether it is acceptable or not, and whether i hurt someone else by my behavior or not. Yes...it is tiring, but not easy for me to change just in a short moment. And i dont think it is wrong attitude that needs to be changed urgently, indeed i found it to be one of my identity as Indonesian, you know...it is something called "tenggang rasa" or "tepo seliro".

But it's amazing how there are some people who could behave as they want to be, without care to others feeling or even to impact of their behavior toward somebody else. And still they can speak up about "tenggang rasa" to other people. Gee...i really want to throw back all the words they said and yelled "Don't you ever look yourself in the mirror??!??" and "Speak to your self!!!!! #@$%!!!@#$

Yup....some people are never learn, and it is more easy for them to see somebody elses fault rather than their own.

* Posted by 3k4 @ 3:06 PM *

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[Friday, March 12, 2004]

I am soooooo happy today ^^. Yesteday i got a phone call form my family in Indonesia, and today i have seen all my marks from the previous period. Well...surely you can guess, since i'm happy then the result must be quite satisfying *grin*. Not perfect anyway, but quite good. And because i didn't put high expectations before, so the result really more than enough for me.

Strange, after saw my marks like that i feel my spirit somehow returned. Yup....the spirit just like in the last period. So...while the spirit exist, i must use it wisely and start to study now. Unless it will blown away and vanished again ^^

* Posted by 3k4 @ 5:57 PM *

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[Thursday, March 11, 2004]

I got a cold....a very bad cold. I haven't read anything and i haven't manage myself to do any assignment *sigh*.

Oh yes, about the pictures that you can see the link in this blog, i haven't mentioned anything behind the stories. The first one was taken when Wageningen snowing about 2 weeks ago. Since it was our first snow and that much, so we were very exciting and a little bit overact *norak, hehehe*. But it was fun, eventhough Debbie had to prepare for the exam in the afternoon and me for the following day.

Then comes the second and the third. It was taken on the last weekend when i spent my time with Ibu Titiek at Tante Jong and Oom Cor houses in Panningen. They are really a nice person, they treated us really good and makes me feel like family. On the saturday they took us to travel accross countries, from Vals (Netherlands), Eupen (Belgie), and Monchou (Germany) by cars!!! I really enjoy the travelling, especially when we were in Monchou, it's really a beautiful small city, very peaceful and romantic. Surrounding by hills with old buldings and snows makes the atmosphere completely different *just like city of the elves*

On Sunday, they took us to visit Kinderdijk, some small city near Rotterdam that famous as windmills spot. There are 19 windmills in the area, surrounding by grassland, wetland, and small rivers *really beautiful*. Then they took us to Rotterdam and visit the Maas tunnel, some tunnel that uses to walk by feet or bicycle and built 1 km under the Maas river! Wow, it's really amazing. And last, they took us to Scheveningen beach on Den Haag to saw the sunset and bought some stuffs before they drove us back home to Wageningen.

I really impressed with their kindness. I don't think i ever find such a nice people for all my life. We were strangers, but they treated us like familiy. And we're a family now ^^

It's a little bit relaxing now. Well...that's actually the main reason for making this blog. So i can talk anything about everything without have to be worried to boring anyone.*_^

* Posted by 3k4 @ 1:42 AM *

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[Friday, March 05, 2004]

Hhhh....first week of classes right after exam period. I felt like not recovered yet, my spirit still fly away, my physics still exhausted, and my mind still somewhere out there. Hopefully everything improved after this weekend.

Btw i cancelled my trip to Den Haag this weekend, and it switch to Maastricht. No..not visiting Wulan yet, but visiting someother friends. If there's a chance, i would like to drop by to Wulan's and say hi or whatsoever. I'll be leaving on this afternoon, and i'll be back on Sunday afternoon, so we'll see then.

Finally i got notification from SSHW that i got self contained room (room with private shower & toilet), and allowed to moving on the 1st April. Gee....i just felt good in my present room, and decided not to move anywhere, then the notification comes. If i had to decided for shorter term, i might say no, but considering the longer term, which i'll be stay here for more than 1 more year, i'd better move for the sake of my own convenience.

* Posted by 3k4 @ 4:49 PM *

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[Monday, March 01, 2004]

Today, most of my senior in Wageningen departed to Indonesia. We drove them to Schiphol and enjoyed our very last time together. When it times to said goodbye, no more words left, only tears in our eyes, cried of sadness, and promises to keep in touch, and see you again.

Why people have to be so easy to tied on to something that feels so hurt when it comes to farewell? But the togetherness was so beautiful that i will never regret it. Even for me who just knew them for 2 months, I can feel their sincere, their kindness, their sister/brotherhood, and their warm. Just like found a new family far away from home.

Life goes on...people comes and people go...we just have to learn and let it go. Goodluck for you all who had left your episodes in Wageningen and start a new journey back at home.

* Posted by 3k4 @ 7:23 AM *

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