[Friday, February 27, 2004]

Tomorrow i'll have 2 exam, the Research Method and Economics. Wish me luck, i hope i can pass both smoothly. I think i'm in the phase 3 now *pasrah*.

Btw, now i really like the song from Babyface with title "The Loneliness". It's really nice song, from his latest album that will be released in US on March 23rd. I'll try to find the lyrics, so i can put it here. ^^



* Posted by 3k4 @ 2:29 AM *

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[Wednesday, February 25, 2004]

Hhhh....1 exam passed, 2 more left, and it will be due on Friday....2 exam in the same day!!! *_*

Comments about today's exam? Hmm....no comment! I dont want to spend my energy of thinking the today's exam, i'd better prepare for the 2 left. And tonight, i draw myself back to phase 2 again *sigh*.

You know, i think i had studied more on the last 2 days compare to the whole days last week ;p I find new method, woke up early in the morning, kept my window closed for the whole day, and start to catch up *i was studying with open window last week*. And it quite works! *surprisingly* At least i felt so. Is it because of the new method? Or is it because of the 'kepepet' factor? Maybe next period i should start to study that way, keep away my room from sunlight and live like a vampire until the exam passes ^^.

* Posted by 3k4 @ 6:39 AM *

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[Monday, February 23, 2004]

I think there are 3 phases in facing the exam:

1. The phase to feel relax and calm coz plenty of time still left to study
2. The phase to start panics and a little bit hurry here and there coz time left to study already shrinking.
3. The phase to feel release, letting loose, 'pasrah', "whatever will be, will be..." coz the exam is finally coming and nothing else we can do about it.

And tonight, i believe i'm in the phase 2.... +_+

* Posted by 3k4 @ 4:06 AM *

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[Sunday, February 22, 2004]

Well...well...well....the study week finally over, and the exam week is coming *jreng...jreng!* God, i really nervous with my first exam here, heard all the stories about it, how difficult it is, etc...etc...just make me more worry *sigh*

A lot of materials still left to be studied and re-read *thank God i have read it once ^^*, and a lot of things to be memorize *apparently exam still related with 'ngapal'*, which i find it really difficult. You know, being away from academic life for more than 2 years, makes it so hard for me to getting used again just within two months.

I spent most of my time for the last 'study' week to have fun, going for a walk with friends, cooking at my room, and even for this weekend i didn't touch the books at all coz Dedek (my friend form Den Haag) was here!!! Yesterday we spent our time in Centrum, shopping like crazy *grin*, and lunch at Chinese restaurant near centrum *nice place*. Then today, we was riding a bicycle around Wageningen, took some pictures, and lunch at Asia Plaza *having lunch at Chinese Restaurant for 2 days in a row, hmm...what a lifestyle ^^*. But you know the worse part, i didn't regret it at all! I really enjoy every moment and really have fun, though sometimes the guilty feeling did arised *sometimes....reallly sometimes, hehehe*. Gee....i'm afraid the regret will come at last, maybe on the exam day when i can't do my test...or maybe after the exam when i see the final mark *well...hopefully not*

I just hope everything will be okay....my exam will run smoothly...and i can catch up what's left in this last few days until the exam. Though it's not good things to be used to, but like people said...pressures always good in enforced you to do something that even (you think) beyond your capability. So maybe by 'kepepet' like this, i can pull myself to study more and more *_*

* Posted by 3k4 @ 11:54 PM *

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[Sunday, February 15, 2004]

I loooooovee Maastricht!

That's the impression i got from yesterday's trip ^^.
It's really a nice old city, very different with another city in Netherlands. Indeed, it looks very European. I think that's why they called Maastricht as the capital city of Europe, being in the middle of Netherlands, Belgium, and Germany, the mix of culture is so strong that i didn't even feel like in Netherlands. I just want to go back there someday, hopefully soon, maybe when Wulan's mom is here, so i can stay in her house for one night or two *grin*. Btw, Wulan is Mbak Votti's cousin (my friend at Makro) who just 1 year older than me, married to dutch guy, and have 1 year old daughter now.

Yesterday we got home in 10 o'clock in the evening, and it's not enought yet. The centrum is so laaaaarge, a lot of things to see there. And next week there would be a carnaval in Maastricht, all school are having holiday for 1 week in preparing for the carnaval. Well, we have 1 week holiday too, but it's for preparing the exam, so that called the study week. How i want to see the carnaval if only i didn't remember the exam *sigh*

About the book fair, it's really great! A lot of books and all so cheap. I spent almost 3 hours there and got some books *8 actually*. And you know what kind of book i bought? 1 text book of advertising, 1 text book of marketing, 1 text book of mass communication, 1 pockect book of populer psychology, 1 novel, and 3 interior design books ;p

Yup, none related with my study here. Looks neighbour's field still more interesting for me ^_^

It's Sunday already, and i still can't manage myself to study yet *sigh again*. I dont know, something wrong with me. Everything is so wrong i think. Yesterday was valentine's day, and it just make me more 'blue'. And i chat with Wulan just now, she suggest me to stay and try to work here after graduation. Sounds like a good idea for me at this moment. But anyway it's still a long way to go there as i was just starting my journey here. So...it's not decided yet, lets wait and see what's coming in the next 1.5 years.

Now back to study...study...study....+_+

* Posted by 3k4 @ 7:38 PM *

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[Saturday, February 14, 2004]

Weekend is coming.....*yipiiiiiiii* i never felt this relieved. Today 2 of my assignment done, the presentation was doing great, and i spent the evening having dinner with friends, Poly from bulgaria, and Jian from China. They cooked me dinner, then Jian drove me back home *since i dont know the way back home from their building*, and the food was great. We chat a little, about our personal life, study, problems, habit, etc....its fun, they're very open and friendly *nice people*

And since i feel very happy today...i decided to go to Maasricht tomorrow *what's the connection anyway?*, yup, to the bookfair. Well, i dont want to buy some books anyway, maybe if there's something interesting, but i just want the walk actually, the fun, the sightseeing *hehehehe*. So probably i'll feel better and more fresh to study for the exam *excuse^^*

About the presentation today, i felt really great. It's so cool, especially the economics *ehm*. And i think the teacher *erik* was impressed too to our group *really...really??!*. Well at least i hope so ^^

But we still have to do some final editing for the final report, so maybe we'll meet on Tuesday. Hope i have study something by that day. This weekend i plan to finalize the report of Research Method too, maybe on Sunday, but i dont know....we'll see...definitely not early in the morning.

But meanwhile for tomorrow....Maastricht here i come ^_^

* Posted by 3k4 @ 5:02 AM *

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[Friday, February 13, 2004]

Tomorrow is the deadline for 2 of my assignment. I was suppose to have 2 presentation, but i decide to give up 1 to my other workgroup mate. Quite relieving, it's almost over, all these assignment, etc..etc.

I hope tomorrow presentation will doing great. Apparently i have nice workgroup mate, and nice classmates too for 1 of the assignment. Too bad i just found out in the last minutes like this.

Saturday, should i to Maastricht or not? The book fair looks tempting, but the exam looks worrying ;p

* Posted by 3k4 @ 5:26 AM *

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[Wednesday, February 11, 2004]

Time is running....the clock is ticking....and deadline is coming!!!

Assignment! I suppose to do 2 presentation this week for 2 assignment, and both have deadline of final report within this week! Not to mentioned another 1, though the deadline will be the exam date, but i prefer to finish it by this week, so my study won't be interrup with anything.

Study! There's another words that seems to be a problem recently. Exam will coming in 2 weeks, still i can't manage my self to study properly *sigh*, yet, i'm kind a panic, nervous, worry, etc..etc... This would be my first exam here, and i'm scare to death that it would be mess *hiks*

2 weeks, 2 assignment, 2 presentation *wow...so many "2" there*

Hope everything would run smoothly, then i will do my best *definitely* and let God do the rest *amien*

* Posted by 3k4 @ 5:44 AM *

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[Monday, February 09, 2004]

Yesterday (saturday) i went to Utrecht with Jo, Fitri, Kiki, and Tintin. The plan was finding something as a gift, especially for Mom. But then what happened, we went to IKEA unplanned, which was time consuming coz the store is so laaaarrge and many cute things there. Cute and cheap! Very different with Ikea price in Jakarta. Here it seems so affordable that made me feel want to buy everything *hehehehe*. But thank God i was decided not to, because we still have to walk to Utrecht centraal do some more shopping ^^. Well...Ikea can wait, so i just bought few things, and left some others for later.

But again....in Utrecht centraal i couldn't find anything that fit with my taste as a gift *sigh*. I didn't even look for do more shopping there, which was quite amazing. I think i have lost my sense of shopping *hehehehe* so i have to practice more often to gain it back *grin*. Finally i just bought some food materials from Toko Cina and some stuff from Ikea on this trip. Altough it's not too satisfying, but it's okay, i was quite happy and having fun *that the most important*

At the evening, we're having dinner at Kiki's, with opor ayam by Tintin, goreng tempe by Me, bakwan by Jo, and completed with cabe rawit by Fitri ^_^ *nice dinner*

And today...another gathering was held, the celebration of Mbak Nana's birthday. Great food, freat friends, great athmosphere. Nasi kuning, ayam panggang, sambal goreng, telur dadar, puding, salad buah, etc..etc....*yummy* i can't believe that Mbak Nana prepare all of the food by herself *plok...plok...plok....standing applause for Mbak Nana*

For weather report, Wageningen experienced 4 season of the year in only 1 day today. Starting with cloudy morning, followed with strong wind and rain, then heavy snowfall, and closed with bright sunshine in the afternoon *amazing how it all can happen in a day ^^*

* Posted by 3k4 @ 1:41 PM *

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[Friday, February 06, 2004]

Finally weekend is coming *yippiiii* ;D Two of my assignment was due this week, so it's quite relieved and i can breath a little, before the draft is returned next week by supervisor, complete with comments to be revised, and do the presentation *sigh*. Forget it, looks what lay ahead, weekend, uthrecht, etc...etc.....What ever happen next week, let's it be next week ;p

Today i feel great. Coz all my plan was done. Starting with went to Leeuw, make the copy of course material, meet with Bas, go to the post office, weekly shopping at C1000, and cooking dinner. At the beginning i felt not sure to do it all, seems too much and i don't like to go alone. Not to mentioned the weather that seems cloudy and ready ro rain. But all my friends were having a class, so rather than cancel everything i decided to go alone. Afterall, it's no problem at all, everything running smooth and i quite enjoy the ride actually *i must do this much often* ^_^

I usually feel unhappy on weekend during my first weeks here, because the lonely feeling seems stronger on weekend. In my home, weekend mean gathering of the family, the time to have your social life, and togetherness is the keyword. Here, i must spend weekend alone *most of the time*, sitting in my room *coz there's no place to hang out in Wageningen ^^*, and feeling unhappy at all. But now everything's gone, i begin to enjoy my solo here, having my own life, and all by my self. I feel independent, even for a small thing like changing the lights in my room when it's not function, i climbed on the table and cupboard myself *something that i won't be doing at home*. It's amaze me too, i never thought i could do something that i never do *grin*

I think people will learn to know themselves in the solitary, coz they will forced to find out the deepest side of their thoughts and capability. So today's lesson is START TO ENJOY MY SOLITARY ^^

* Posted by 3k4 @ 10:38 PM *

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Today was rain...looks the friendly weather is not last long enough *sigh*, and it's forecasted to be snowing again on sunday *yipiii, i don't mind with this one*

I want to make a phone call to my home, i don't know, the feeling is getting stronger lately. Maybe this is what they call homesick? *hehehe, gaya euy baru sebulan udah homesick*. Like today, i want to study, but somehow my mind just can't concentrate. I want to do some assigment, it's not working too. What's happening with me?? *ouw come on, you're just being lazy ^_^*

I feel time like running here, days seem so short, you don't know what you do, then suddenly it's midnight again and time to sleep. And so it goes the following days...and on...and on...I think i need to me more adjusted with activity here, so i won't feel like being hurry anytime, running this and that, panic of catching here and there.

MORE ORGANIZED, that's the key word of today's lesson ;)

* Posted by 3k4 @ 2:03 AM *

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[Thursday, February 05, 2004]

You know, it's hard to find something when we really mean to find it. Like today, i planned to go to centrum to do some shopping for my family, i really feel excited about it, but then what happen....seems nothing fit with my taste. And i don't want to send anything i don't like myself. If i have to give something, then it must be something that i like, so i went back from centrum empty handed ;(

Maybe i'll send them something later, about at the end of this month, when all the class of 2002 graduated and go back home to Indo *hmm...make me feel want to go home too* ^_^

Today's weather as good as yesterday, and it bring not too good impact for me. The good the weather, the lazy i become *hehehe*. Maybe it's because of the weather, nice and comfortable, coz i see all my friend is facing the same feeling too *excuse!* or maybe it's coming to the end of period, so everybody already tired and exhausted, we're just human anyway *another excuse!*

And tonight we plan to give Mbak Nana a little surprise, tomorrow is her birthday, so we want to be the first to greet her a happy birthday. But detail plan is not decided yet, we'll discuss it in a moment before go to her room. Hope it's a sweet plan, coz Mbak Nana is so nice and sweet too, i think nobody have a heart to make some bad surprise.

Let see, everybody will come to my room in about minutes, just half an hour before midnight...let see what going to happen ^_^

Oh well....seems like another day spend without study *make me feel a little guilty* Come on....i must pull myself together, and keep in my mind to catch up!!!! *yeah...*

* Posted by 3k4 @ 4:53 AM *

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[Wednesday, February 04, 2004]

After workgroup meeting at Leeuw today, i went to centrum to buy some present. Tomorrow is Mbak Nana's birthday! So i must find something to give on behalf all of us. It's nice and quite relaxing you know. Do some window shopping after marathon workgroup meeting and doing assignment all day is really 'healthy' i guess *i have to do this more often, hehehehe*

And the weather....hmm...so nice and friendly. I love netherlands in this kind of weather, quite warm with 12 C degrees, not too windy, and the most important NO RAIN!!! It's quite weird, when i was still in Indonesia, i like rainy days, i love the look of cloudy sky and the freshness when the raindrops. But here, i don't like rain at all! Maybe because even without rain, the air is already clean and fresh here, so we dont need rain to wipe away all dust and dirt in the air *i guess*

In short i love the weather in wageningen today, and i hope it will continue friendly like this ^^

Btw, Pak Hadi is going back to Indonesia on February 5 to pick his wife and child. I want to ask him bring something for my family. So i plan to go back to centrum tomorrow afternoon and do some shopping again ^^ to buy some stuffs that can be given to my fams in homeland. And i planned to ask him buy something for me from Indonesia, a brand new handphone, N-3660 or N-6600 *my dream phone* But i'm not so sure yet, because Pak Hadi won't stay at Jkt, he will fly directly to Malang. Hmm....let see what i decide this evening.

* Posted by 3k4 @ 2:52 AM *

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Hhhhhh what a day *sigh*....Yesterday i was trying to finish some assignment, economics, principles and research method, but seems all still needs a lot of work to do. Oh well...not a lot maybe...some work...a little bit more....one last touch hehehehe *try to comfort myself*

The economics already hand-in to my partner, Wyatt an American student, he will finalize, completed some part, and edited if it necessary, well...english is his mother languange, i suppose it should be a lot easier for him.
The principles *sigh again* still a lot of work to do, the group just not working very smooth. It's quite difficult to put 5 heads in one simple report, i think this group is too large. But hey, stop complaining, at least the progress is well until today. We just met at Leeuw canteen this afternoon, and decide to complete our report by Friday, then i will have to do the compilation and editing for finalize the report.
And last but not least, the resarch method assignment. Tomorrow is the deadline, we have to hand in the complete draft of our assignment by 12.00, and we haven't finish it yet! Me and my partner suppose to discuss it tonight by MSN, but up to now she's not knocking and the status is busy so i dont want to disturb her yet. I hope she's busy doing our assignment ^^

I have to pull myself together and start to doing my assignment again! Or at least read some materials to make me feel better ^^ *ayo semangat!!*

* Posted by 3k4 @ 2:30 AM *

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[Monday, February 02, 2004]

Btw this is my new BLOG, i just learn to make it my self *grin*, and seems like there's so many trial and error before it really fit. Still not perfect yet, i try to manage some tag board here, and maybe edit the lay out of my profile later. Not to mentioned the writing habit! It's really new experience for me ^_^
But i'm quite happy with the result, it's really the application of learning by doing, just trying to construct and find the material myself....well, not totally myself actually, coz i found the material by reference in fitripitrisipirili *thanks ya non...* maybe i will ask her later for improving my page ;)
Now enough the blogger time, back to reality and work on some economics assignment *target: finish it TONITE!!!*

* Posted by 3k4 @ 12:06 AM *

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[Sunday, February 01, 2004]

Eid Mubarak!

Hey, it's been a month since i left my homeland and went to Netherlands to study. And today is my first festive celebration here, far from friends and family i knew all my life before. But you know what, being far away from home don't make me feel alone and lonely *yet*, coz here i found new friends and family that could keep me warm in the cold winter of Wageningen.
And the weather too, it seems very supporting, not too cold, sunny, warm of about 13 C degree, and soft windblow *nice*. Then there's the food....complete sate kambing & ayam, ketupat, opor, soto, etc. *yummy*, really look alike with my mom's cook for this celebration ;D
Thanks to everybody who had put so much effort in preparing the celebration, it's really make me feel like home :)

* Posted by 3k4 @ 8:58 PM *

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